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Suffering and tired

On that day, my mom said,  “  I want to take a shower ”  The fact is that she could no t sit properly anymore. It was not a joke. Some images came into my mind. There was a movie   “ Patch Adam ”  about a doctor who would do anything to make his patient happy. So I asked  my mom,  “  Do you really want to get a shower?  “  Instantly she said,  “  Yes. Is that difficult for you? ”  It was a big challenge. I said,  “ As you wish, mom. I will make it happen for you ” I prepared a wheelchair and covered it with plastic, then I asked my husband, my daughter and my assistant to help me lift my mom from her bed. We put her in the wheelchair then brought her to the bathroom. My daughter and I gave my mom a bath.  She was in pain but she had the biggest smile on her face that day. She was so happy after almost two months lying in her bed without getting a real shower.  I cried  …  I cried in my heart. I was so happy to see the hard work that we did. My mom can go anytime  …  but I am g

I am still learning

Michael Angelo at the very old age said “ I am still learning “     So do I   It was 31 years ago. For the first time I taught accounting for senior high school student. I was young and unexperienced as teacher at that time. In the class there were  25 students. It was easy because I had confidence that I knew accounting. I taught diligently and clearly at that time. Most of the students got a good grade, but one student kept got 2 out of 10.  I asked him “ Do you understand when I teach you “ He looked at me with a confused face.  He yelled at me “ what “ I was angry then I stared at him “ Why you always get a bad grade ? If you don’t understand you can ask me “  He looked at me, his face showed he was frustrated to deal with me.  I said “ If you never tell me whether you understand or not. I can not help you “  I left him.  I was sad and angry. Basically I don’t care if people hate me, but I hate to be misunderstood.  I shared the problem with other teachers an

Welcome 2020

It has been months that I didn ’ t write for my blogs. One day my friend sent me a message,  “ Lina, when will you write again in your blogs? ” He didn ’ t know that my life has changed a lot. I had many things to do back in 2019.  A trip to Europe for my daughter ’ s graduation, my daughter ’ s wedding preparation and then my mom got liver cancer. It was good thing and bad thing happened in the same time.  I told myself,  “  It is well with my soul  …  I just need to be focus  “ Duke Ellington said,  “  A problem is a chance for you to do your best  “  and I tried to do it. It is not easy at all, but it is true that each problem in life will give us a chance to do our best. We can learn how to handle our emotion better than before. I learn more from life  … Especially I have to take care of my mom, and she was in pain and she didn ’ t want to be served. I learned to serve her better and I learned to understand her emotional to face the cancer. When my mom decided to take pa